Nope not giving up.

 

"Every Student in University"
''Not Every Student in University by Three years''   (V)

Retention parents meeting

Teacher: If you promote with mere passes next year, you won't get into a Uni.
Me: I will not promote with mere passes.


Teacher: According to last year retainee performance, more than 50% was superannuated.
Me: I was told that 39 out of 60 retainees did better than the J1s this year.
Teacher: We push up some.


Dad: How are the students 'A' levels performance?
Teacher: Our school performance is around national average.
Me: Papa, around 40% of the students can go to Uni.


Teacher: Your results show that you did not make plans for yourself this year. It's time you should be more responsible.
Me: That's why I'm here, informing you my decision.


Dad: Does the school suggest any different subject combination to help joanna?
Teacher: Yes, we think H2 china studies instead of H2 mathematics will be better for her.
Me: (wtfffff) I'm not very good at memorising


Teacher: No, when you understand what you're learning, it will not be memorising.
Me: I don't think I will understand when I'm not really interested.
Teacher: It takes time to be interested. China studies is actually an interesting subject.... It is also easy to do well...
Me: Do you teach China studies?
Teacher: No, but I know students taking this subject generally do very well.
Me: *Sweet smile* My ST told me the best candidate taking China studies last year scored a C grade.
Teacher: However there were 100% passes.
Me: There were only 4 or 5 H2 students last year.
*SLIENCE*


(My kind father decided to be nice.)
Dad: We will look through H2 China studies tonight and let you know again.
Teacher: Ok, hope it's useful.
Dad: Thank you.
Me: ( shooo helpful, *roll eyes*)


Teacher: I hope you will study hard from today because even you only miss by 1 mark to pass next year, we will not advance you.
Me: I thought you say the school pushed up some? It's okay, I don’t need the one mark anyway, will study hard.
Teacher: You should appeal to poly in case you change your mind. Well, I'm just been honest.


Teacher2 (ugly blue eyeliner) : Where do you want to go?
Dad: *this teacher a bit siao face*
Me: Sociology in NTU or NIE.
Teacher2: You don't have to take H2 mathematics.
Me: Ok..
Teacher2: I will help you find the admission criteria.
Me: ok.. thanks.


*3 minutes later*
Teacher: So how?
Teacher2: I will send to your tpjc net later.


(There's some insulting stuff they said, but I forgot. I KNOW IM MORE WORTHY THAN WHAT YOU THINK)

I checked up H2 china studies last night, to be fair, although it doesn't interest me but it's comparatively manageable. I quite like paper 3, independent study.


To cheer myself up, i look up some funny cartoons in google.
And the nice considerate nature of me decides to share some.

And my favourite,

Side note: You can ask me questions/leave comments through Formspring at the right now. (:

                                    

Beyond imperfections

'There are million of suns in countless galaxies, all spinning around a single point. That point- is not you.'

I was thinking if i should private this post and i decided No, because this is my personal space. If you don't like, you leave.


Despite the optimistic nature of me, i've been rather depressed lately. I feel that i have let myself down. I'm losing the courage to try again, because i failed so hard. I don't blame anyone, just hope that i will be strong again.


I know that i've not been balancing my life well, but i hope that it's not too late. If you are reading my blog and feeling somewhat the same way, i urge you to pull yourself together and hang on. I'm not sure if i'm able to overcome all this shit, but i just wana you to know that life is never fair so look beyond the imperfections.


I tried to be brave, but for someone with high ego like me, it's hard to admit that i've been defeated. I couldn't accept the things i have lost - The close bond with my family & A friendship.


Yes, I didn't forget about my lousy results, but at least i'm able to make a change to it, even if it means spending one more year. I know I'm able to prioritise my life and work well with proper time management. I will do well.

This year, i've grown apart with mommy and daddy, and i feel so bad. As the only child of the family, they dote me more than anything else and never fails to provide the best for me. They may not be the richest parents but in my growing years, i've never felt that they don't love me enough. My daddy works in a japan company and often receives gifts from his foreign colleagues, but he will always bring it back for me and mommy. He loves the family, and had never did anything unfaithful or something that will hurt us. I've also got the best mommy that loves me more that herself. I still remember just last month, mommy went to vietnam with her school teachers and when she came back, her luggage was generally filled with presents for me, some for daddy and the family. Although the presents were not excatly my favourites but what i realised was she had not bought anything for herself. Yet, she looked so happy and contended. I don't really know how to describe my feelings then, but i defintely felt touched and bitter. Also, in this 18years, my parents have never forgotten my birthday. They will always prepare presents with a birthday card for me. It always begins with 'To our dearest daughter' and ends with 'From daddy and mommy who love you the most.' I know how much they want to spend this special day with me, but this year, i only had lunch with them. I think i'm a bad daughter.I know all this may just be simple things in your eyes, but it means the world to me. I know they will not be reading this but mommy and daddy, i just want you to know how much i love you. Your daughter didn't change, it's just that i don't know how to express myself, i'm sorry.



For people whom i've newly met (and like), I hope we will grow closer.
For people whom i've newly met (and dont like), I hope i wont see you again.
For people who love me, I appreciate it.
For people that I've neglected, i will spend more time with you.
For people who hate me, i feel sad for you that you missed ou an awesome girl.
For people who have 'like' my post, every 'like' keeps me happy for awhile, thanks sweetheart!!



Side note: Sorry for the long wordly post. I'm feeling much better now, and i hope tomorrow will be a better day for everyone.


                                 (deliberately)

Photoshop

I don't photoshop heavily cos it will look too awesome to be real.


Jennifer & Angela
AFTER


Jennifer(Left) :  She's sweet, generally. >:)
 Angela (Right) :  My favourite.

She's hot, skinny, smart, nice, and tall.
Pretty much like me. \m/
Fine, beside being tall. BE NICE, i know what you are thinking.



Jaelyn and Brandon
AFTER

I think this is best edited. Now Jaelyn can look xin fu without being fat.
Omg yy, you really look dam gross in the before photo, like balloon. Poor brandon with a pig. *kind face*
To be nice, the edited photo looks more like you in real life.



Ying tian
AFTER


A super sweet babe with dam pretty eyes.

Chio, i like!



Mandie
AFTER

I like the way she smiles, it makes me feel happy.
I think the nose and eyes edits are not bad. (V)


Kristie
AFTER

I think smoky eyes suit kristie alot, but abit weird in uniform.

I didn't edit much cos i think the original photo is already pretty.
If it's a full body pic, i will edit your * first.  ^^



Walter
AFTER

This photo is the hardest to edit, but i pretty like the effects. You look healthier.



I didn't edit Sok's photo in the end, cos I cant find a suitable one / does not need any edit.
Sok huy




And finally, it will be my pretty face and one of jaelyn's eyes,

&

ME AND MY GFF(Gay friend forever)

I will talk about him in a later post, for now, you just have to know he's dead awesome.

Me: You're late, puntuality is the key to success.

Alson: So is patience.  

                                      

That's all, goodnights.

 Side note: Thanks to all for your photos. (:
Next post: Beyond imperfections.

Letter - I cheated on you

It's time for confession, i cheated. Sorry. I know we were so in love but i think i've found myself a new man. Yes, i'm a mean bitch. But too bad, I'm over you. Ok, i know many people think you're awesome. You're popular and hot. I still think that too but the feelings just not there anymore. You are always good in bed i swear and kinky times with you were the best. I know how true you are to me, and how much you want me to be your wife. I don't know what to say anymore, but i'm sorry for having an affair k. Nevertheless, I will always remember the deep-rooted love we onced shared, jung jung [Jae jung's pet name]. :')



This is one of the sweetest memory we had, you went all the way to SG Ikea just to buy me my favourite poka-dote blanket. *tears well up in eyes* I mean like, I really know how much you did for me.



Yes, this was taken on the 9 times you proposed to me, I'm sorry for rejecting you times and times again k. I appreciate your devotedness. (But because i really want a Itouch 4, i'm gona sell all the rings you gave me.)


Collection of rings you gave me,

I know you love me more as years goes by, it's quite obvious from the the increasing diamonds on the rings.



Before i end this letter, i just wana show you the man i dump you for.
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(Ps. Wrong pic.)


Aha, this him..

(Removed the photo)
♥
I count on you.


If you don't get the joke and feel offended. Don't come again, you're too nice for me.


*Next post -Photoshop
*Side note - Thanks yy for helping me with the blog. And for being the idiot responsible for the first post.