Life is a gamble

Life's full of choices,

full of temptations,

full of uncertainties.

  One decision changes everything.




It's really hard to clearly define what's right and wrong. And sometimes i'm so tired of people needing a reason for everything they do, sometimes i do it just because i want it. It may not be the best for me but at least, I'm took the chance and try. Just don't want to look back 30years down the road and start regretting the million of things i gave up for. I have only one life, so i'm gona live it to the fullest.

I have been feeling uncertain lately, I grew unsure of what i truly want. (nothing about studies, wont say promos being fantastic but its not that bad to worry about). We only learn to appreciate when we realize we can't do without them, only realize our love when they're no longer in our life. Why? Why can't we learn to treasure what we have when it's still there? Why can't we love without restrictions?

I know i'm always jolly and all, but i'm actually... a little tired. I know i shouldn't be feeling this way with everyone who loves me around but. I can't help it. I need a special someone, a soulmate, to pull me along, to rely on. I have the best best friend in the world and although we don't talk much, i love her more than anything else. But, this kind of comfort i need is different. I used to tell everything to Al but not anymore, we're supposedly closer since we're in the same college but we grew further, ironic isn't it? I tried and i'm still trying to keep him close. He always tells me there's nothing wrong but i'm feeling so scared that i'll lose him. Close friends like this are hard to come by, let's talk my dear.

(*I lost the photo where you were peeping at my boob! :/)


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'Sometimes in life, you realize that you might not mean as much to someone as they mean to you. But that is when you learn that you should never make someone your priority if you're only their option. That is when you learn to put the people that put you as their priority as your priority.' This hit me hard. I'm not afraid of trying. I'm not afraid of getting hurt again. I'm not afraid of fights. But, i'm only afraid that we're not in this together. Give me a hug.

I know how sincere you are, i know, i really know, but just i can't trust enough.


Can't promise you a perfect relationship, but as long as you're trying, i'm staying.

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Omg it's such a wordy post. :') If you didn't understand a thing, it's not you. It's me, i'm rambling as each thought flows to me so pardon me for the incoherent and abrupt change of topic post.

So to compensate, i'm gona show you...

Tomorrow when i wake up, am pretty sure i wont have anymore friends on fb sigh

 and,

 xiaxue looks great in pink hair so i attempted it too, how is it!
HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA :>

ok judge me all you want, bye darlings!

Day 1: 10 Things about you

1. Red/Pink is my fav colour but black is my fav dress colour.

2. An ideal date will be a picnic at the beach.

3. I'm closer to my dad than my mom.

4. I love long letters and i think it's one of the sweetest thing ever.

5. I don't really like chocolates (besides Almond Kisses!)

6. I'm actually a china scholar. No la, kidding. :>

7. I'll come up with my own words when i can't find an expression to vocalise my feelings.

8. I've an extreme fear for snake.

9. I love accessories (eg hair tie, rings, eye rings, nail polish) and i have drawers full of it.

10. I generally love everything that is happy, everyone that is real.



Anyway, PROMOS IS OVER! *rolls around on the grass*


*Next post i will show you pretty photos ^^ LOL, xoxo.

here comes the feeling you thought you've forgotten

Life is too short to wake up in the morning for regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you have a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody says that it will be easy, but i promise, it will be worth it.

I trusted you,









I still do.