Note- 2012

I did a similar note two years ago and I decided to redo it to see how i have or have not changed.


 

A - AVAILABLE: I’ve a partner.

B - BIRTHDAY: 18 Sep

C - CRUSHING ON: -

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD:  Jasmine green tea

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Dave

F - FAVORITE SONG: Taylor Swift - Ours

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Cola gummy bears.

H - HOMETOWN: My parents were from China

I - IN LOVE WITH: studying. I hope.

J - JUGGLE: my life

K - KILLED SOMEONE: No

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE:  Around 5 hours

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR:  Cookies & Cream

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 0

O - ONE WISH: Everyone I love and who love me to be blessed.

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST:  Adam

R - REASON TO SMILE: Grateful to have those who love me.

S - SONG YOU LAST SANG:  ‘How deep is your love?’

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 11.43am

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: Black

V - VEGETABLE(S): Potato, Corn

W - WORST HABIT: Too emotive at times.

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Two.

Y - YOYOS ARE: memories

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Monkey.

RANDOM QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU

Spell your name without vowels? Jnn

Your favorite number? 31

What colour do you wear most? Black.

Least favorite colours? Orange

What are you listening to? Wide awake - Katy Perry

Are you happy with your life right now? Pretty much.

What is your favourite class in school? Literature.

Who is your best friend: Si Min

When do you start at school/college? 25 June

Are you outgoing? Depends on who I’m with

Favourite pair of shoes? Black wedges (Besides the pair of red heels my gfs brought for me!)

Can you dance? I’m intending to take up dance lesson after A levels.

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? Almost, but I accidentally swallowed it the last time I tried.

Can you whistle? Nope

Cross your eyes? Yup

Walk with your toes curled? Yes, painful though :/

THE DO'S

Do you believe there is life on other planets? I do.

Do you believe in miracles? I think good things happen to people who deserve it.

Do you believe in magic? Nope, but I think it’s entertaining to watch.

Love at first sight? Eyecandy, yes. Love, not really.

Do you believe in Satan? No

Do you believe in Santa? Not anymore J

Do you know how to swim? Yea

Do you like roller coasters? Sometimes, Mixed feelings.

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? I will like to try if it’s not too gross.

Have you ever been on a plane? Yes

Have you ever asked someone out? Not during early stages of dating I guess.

Have you ever been asked out by someone? Lol, obviously.

Have you ever been to the ocean? Yup, and I Love it!

CRYING SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out? Yes

Ever cried yourself to sleep? Under the covers.

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? Yup

Ever cried over the opposite sex? Yes.

Do you cry when you get an injury? Not really.

Do certain songs make you cry? Almost lover –A fine frenzy

HAPPY SECTION

Are you a happy person? I will say so!

CURRENTLY WEARING

What is your current hair color? Black.

What shirt are you wearing? Black tank top.

Pants? Pink and grey polka dots.

Shoes? Strawberry bedroom slipper

Necklaces? -

Underwear? Black

IN A BOY/GIRL

Favorite features: Eyes, shoulder, Hair

Eye color: Any.

Height: 167- 173 Because I’m quite petite, I’ll prefer my bf not to be too huge.

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: Coke light

Single or Group Dates: 35%- Group,  65%-Single

Chocolate or vanilla: More to chocolate I guess.

Strawberries or Blueberries: Korean Strawberries!

Meat or Veggies: I prefer veggies more

TV or Movie: As long as I’m snuggling with my bf to watch. :>

Guitar or Drums: Drums. But I find guys who can sing well especially charming!

Adidas or Nike: Nike.

Chinese or Mexican: Chinese

Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Ruffles.

A levels is coming, and i'm stressed out.




FOUR TRAITS
I hate: Ungrateful, Self-righteous, Flagrant, Hyprocritical
I love: Grateful, Filial, Sincere, Caring

Ok, thats all. :)

Have a good day, xoxo.
I shall share a secret with you guys soon, hehe.

Name one random thing about myself: I’m going for a haircut soon.

Life is a gamble

Life's full of choices,

full of temptations,

full of uncertainties.

  One decision changes everything.




It's really hard to clearly define what's right and wrong. And sometimes i'm so tired of people needing a reason for everything they do, sometimes i do it just because i want it. It may not be the best for me but at least, I'm took the chance and try. Just don't want to look back 30years down the road and start regretting the million of things i gave up for. I have only one life, so i'm gona live it to the fullest.

I have been feeling uncertain lately, I grew unsure of what i truly want. (nothing about studies, wont say promos being fantastic but its not that bad to worry about). We only learn to appreciate when we realize we can't do without them, only realize our love when they're no longer in our life. Why? Why can't we learn to treasure what we have when it's still there? Why can't we love without restrictions?

I know i'm always jolly and all, but i'm actually... a little tired. I know i shouldn't be feeling this way with everyone who loves me around but. I can't help it. I need a special someone, a soulmate, to pull me along, to rely on. I have the best best friend in the world and although we don't talk much, i love her more than anything else. But, this kind of comfort i need is different. I used to tell everything to Al but not anymore, we're supposedly closer since we're in the same college but we grew further, ironic isn't it? I tried and i'm still trying to keep him close. He always tells me there's nothing wrong but i'm feeling so scared that i'll lose him. Close friends like this are hard to come by, let's talk my dear.

(*I lost the photo where you were peeping at my boob! :/)


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'Sometimes in life, you realize that you might not mean as much to someone as they mean to you. But that is when you learn that you should never make someone your priority if you're only their option. That is when you learn to put the people that put you as their priority as your priority.' This hit me hard. I'm not afraid of trying. I'm not afraid of getting hurt again. I'm not afraid of fights. But, i'm only afraid that we're not in this together. Give me a hug.

I know how sincere you are, i know, i really know, but just i can't trust enough.


Can't promise you a perfect relationship, but as long as you're trying, i'm staying.

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Omg it's such a wordy post. :') If you didn't understand a thing, it's not you. It's me, i'm rambling as each thought flows to me so pardon me for the incoherent and abrupt change of topic post.

So to compensate, i'm gona show you...

Tomorrow when i wake up, am pretty sure i wont have anymore friends on fb sigh

 and,

 xiaxue looks great in pink hair so i attempted it too, how is it!
HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA :>

ok judge me all you want, bye darlings!

Day 1: 10 Things about you

1. Red/Pink is my fav colour but black is my fav dress colour.

2. An ideal date will be a picnic at the beach.

3. I'm closer to my dad than my mom.

4. I love long letters and i think it's one of the sweetest thing ever.

5. I don't really like chocolates (besides Almond Kisses!)

6. I'm actually a china scholar. No la, kidding. :>

7. I'll come up with my own words when i can't find an expression to vocalise my feelings.

8. I've an extreme fear for snake.

9. I love accessories (eg hair tie, rings, eye rings, nail polish) and i have drawers full of it.

10. I generally love everything that is happy, everyone that is real.



Anyway, PROMOS IS OVER! *rolls around on the grass*


*Next post i will show you pretty photos ^^ LOL, xoxo.

here comes the feeling you thought you've forgotten

Life is too short to wake up in the morning for regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you have a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody says that it will be easy, but i promise, it will be worth it.

I trusted you,









I still do.

Dwell

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 This is your last chance to leave.






This is the last leap to promos, goodluck darlings.

3.23Am

It's been long since i last lose sleep. Dont know why it's happening but i'm feeling complicated. I don't know what i want anymore. I will be back, stronger than before.